I AM SO MAD.

I can get a boiling pot and splash it in my sister's face

I AM SO MAD.

I can rip all her clothing in bits of pieces.

I AM SO MAD

I can put honey on her head while she sleeps and call all the bees in the forest to eat her head!

But I can't.

She's still my sister, even if it's been 16 years of my life that we're pulling hairs, slapping both cheeks, exchanging nasty words and even tossing our favorite figurines on the floor. Nothing will ever change our relationship. Even if I go to hell, the blood that runs in my vein will still be the same blood that runs through her vein.

It's quite irritating to hear from my mom the same words she tells when I'm mad. "Anak, pabayaan mo na siya. Ate mo naman yan eh, pagbigyan mo na" Why? Was it because she always buy the things we need? She's the one who pays the electric bill? and I should thank her for it?

Eh she's not even helping you mom. She doesn't give any allowance for you and when she buy stuff for the house it's always cheap but when it comes to her needs it's expensive. LAHAT DAPAT MAHAL PARA LANG SA KANYA. She won't share and will never share.

That's the reason why I'm super mad at her. SHE WON'T GIVE A DAMN, EVEN IF YOU PLEAD HER, SHE'LL MAKE UNNECESSARY REASONS TO ESCAPE FRO SHARING HER STUFF.

SHE'S SO SELFISH!

that I HATE HER.

But I think to myself, what is it for me to hate? will I gain something from it? will it make things better?

I remembered the movie PASSION OF CHRIST Jesus said: "Remember who ever hated you, hated me first"

I can't...I don't hate God. I don't hate all the things He gave to me, I love it and appreciated it. But there are times that the things He made for me, hurts me a lot!

Why can't all things be fair and square? Is it hard to be fair?

But I look into the cross thinking, Jesus was a victim of injustice too, if he had survived from it? Why can't I?


Maybe my mom was right, dapat magpasensya rin ako kahit masakit...

coz I remembered Jesus had promised something:

Blessed are those who suffer persecution for justice' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven