No words can explain how I feel

I can't express or show or whatever.

I mean wtf? What's going on with people today?

Can't they just see RIGHT through me?

Damn. I feel so frustrated and...and...hopeless!

God why do I always have to be the one who listens, to be the one who's always patient, to be the one who keeps what I really feel inside, to be the one who makes people happy? Why can't they all do that for me even just for one day? Just for one single day.

I'm so tired being the SUPER HERO of everyone. It's not so super at all.

Can't I be all selfish just for once?

Can't I express myself just for once and listen to me, just listen.

You know its really hard being not frank about how I think or feel.

It's quite unfair, no REALLY UNFAIR.




GOD CAN YOU BE FAIR JUST FOR ONCE? JUST FOR ONCE.


I HADN'T HAD ANY GOOD BIRTHDAY MOMENTS, no...never did I have any great moments in my entire life, it's all a suck-up moments filled with sucking regrets.

I'm always filled with people with mask and plastic smiles and few people are real.

Oh God, come on! If you know your WILL is good for me, why did you gave me all those plastered-mask people?

Is it my destiny to become one of the plastics too?

GOD I NEED A REAL PERSON. REAL, should I spell it to you? R.E.A.L

You know, I'm really tired being the one who's always understanding people.

Can't you UNDERSTAND ME? I don't think so. No I never thought you would, and it hurts... it really do.