SECRET LOVE BY JOJO

Boy you’re so hard to believe
Boy you’re so hard to believe

[Verse 1:]
Just a friend
That’s all I’ve ever been to you
Oh just a girl
Who wants to be the center of your world
But I ain’t got much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess that’s not enough
For you to notice me
I’m just a girl
And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
To you

[Chorus:]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok
But ohh
You don’t know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love

[Verse 2:]
In my dreams
I see us both together constantly
Why can’t you see
This love that’s here for you inside of me
Ohhh
What do I have to do
For you to notice this
You look at her with love
With me it’s just friendship
I’m just your girl
And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
To you

[Chorus:]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok
But ohh
you don’t know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love

[Bridge:]
What do you see in her
You don’t see in me (don’t see in me)
Boy you’re so hard to believe
Why do you show her love
But there’s none for me
Boy you don’t make sense to me
Cause I don’t have much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess that’s not enough
For you to notice me
I’m just your girl
And I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
To you

[Chorus:]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok (everything ain’t ok)
But ohh
you don’t know how it feels to be so in love (so in love with you baby)
With someone who doesn’t even know
My secret love

Boy you’re so hard to believe



The Story about Chair*

I'm open to tell it now, I'm open to tell it all. I promise him, in MAY 19 he'll know everything.

I met *Chair in a retreat in Pampangga, although we are in the same batch [in P.A.L.S] but I never spoke with him. I just heard his name for a couple of times, I dunno but he's quite famous with his issue about my friend [I wont tell my friend's name since it'll be too obvious] Anyway so yeah I met him that night in the pool. It felt so magically weird when I first saw him, he swam over me and felt his hair and and when I looked down it was like boom! I like you! that kinda thing [haha "LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT", I don't believe on it really] Since then, his face couldn't get out of my head. He's like a song being played over and over again... I just realized from then on, that I fell for him [even though he's quite not a hottie :P sorry *chair.haha] anyway so there...

I met him in YM :) I remembered it clearly, I was talking to Tin about him, wanting to be close to him "as a friend" but I don't know...I just couldn't get my ass on inviting him to be my friend, so Tin forcibly took me in the conference and introduced me to him. It must be really hard for Tin to do it... *sigh*


Anyway after a couple of months talking about her crush, he kinda asked me to help him make it to the prom with her. At first I'D REALLY DON'T FUCKING LIKE TO HELP HIM WITH IT! [UGH! I mean hello! Who in the right mind would? you like him and you know you'll just gonna end up hurting yourself if you would] but i thought, "Hey I don't have any good reason to stop him from wanting her to be with him, he's just like me longing to get close to someone special" I'm not really um...what do you call that... infatuated with him, or I don't know...but look, change me into some other girls who are infatuated with their "crush" I don't give damn about his single minute in his own life... All I could care is that...I just want to talk to him and be close as his friend, I'll just leave it out to God if He wants to make my wish come true. So as a friend I DID IT FOR HIM :( Even if his text like " I want to see her Joy!" "Tangina can't wait for the prom" makes me cry every night it's okay. As long as I see him happy I'm already fine with it.

After that sad event [quite depressing :))] my friends suggest me to look for another guy to like, and I did...but it's hard...his prints on my heart is so deep it's hard to take it out.

Even if I like this guy and that, he's still in my mind.
Until now...it's so hard doing all the [best] effort to forget him... but could not... Maybe this next step of telling him might end it all. Maybe if I tell him I'll be at peace...