Yesterday

I dreamed of hugging someone's grandmother saying thanks to her for being so nice,then I don't know why but I began to cry, maybe because I miss her so much...

6.00am my alarm began to rang

My face was surprisingly a bit wet... did I cry for real?

7.00am

Took my "weekly exam" for my effin summer math class [woohoo put an "i love you math" banner and sway it all the way.] Would you believe that I miraculously survived the test? Thanks for the prayers...and maybe the help of my grandmother which I believe is in heaven right now. Perhaps she lend me her "math" powers to me to make it through that hard algebra test!


1.00pm

I just slept all the way...I was super duper uber tired.


till 4pm
ate lunch.


then in the evening.

I don't know if it's right to tell this but, I'm really hoping to patch all things up. I heard that my friends are having some issues, I know that I don't have any right to "butt-in" But remember this. Guys I'm your FRIEND. I know that maybe I don't have anything much to offer, I know that maybe I'm not good at giving advices or cracking up jokes to liven out your spirits, but I believe that my hope is strong. I believe that maybe this words can make things better. I don't know if this works. But I'm desperate...though I'm not obsesses with you guys [hell no! My obsession is only and exclusively only for Dennis Trillo and "Honey and Clover"]Fuck, I know this may sound really dramatic but guys... I love you, Even though some of us are not that too close I still love you for being a part of this circle. I love you from who and what you really are. It's been like 2 or 3 1/2 years that we're friends. I know that God is putting up on a test, but I beg you don't give up. You're like my second family to me. It'll be hard for me just to see you guys drifting apart slowly. Guys you don't know how you all make me smile everyday of my life. I know this may sound fucking silly but...guys you're like my lovers :)) [ROFL] you're like the source of my strength, that even if I'm flunking almost everything, I just think that besides of my dear family...you're also there to support me even if I'm already below. You don't know what I've been through, I don't want to tell, If you all fucking leave me behind. I swear I'm gonna screw you all! You fucking hear me? Don't tell ma that I just waste this almost like a novel letter for you guys...Don't let me down for saying such corny words like I LOVE YOU. DAMN! you know it's so not me. You know that I maybe the least person to tell such many words. You know that I'm a shy girl, You know that I rarely speak and sometimes I just don't speak at all. Whatever happens, guys I'm not gonna give you all up. I'll do whatever I can to patch all the issues. We'll stay together until we became senior citizens. I wont fucking give up. No I won't...


and despite of this such unfortunate event...
I somehow smiled because of this picture...


Guys meet my huzzy :))Kazuya Kamenashi