Tommorow I'll attend crossroad.
This is what I've been looking for this summer!
I mean despite the things happened to me before. I'd get to reflect for one day even if I'm going to be the server. I mean just being with God...it felt so serene. My inner self knew that I need sometime to reflect since I've been to lots of drama nowadays.

It's true what the priest said "kapag may poblema ka, saan kakapit? Hindi ba sa Diyos lang?" I must confess I've been so stubborn thinking that I can still get through without holding on Him anymore. But I was wrong. I'm really sorry about the things I committed against Him, I was always asking for *signs as if testing him if he's real.

God knows what's in my heart and if there's internet in heaven I wish he can see this:

God I'm really sorry for everything, I'll try my best to face all the trials. And now I believe the problems weren't caused by you. It was me all along. Now the only request that I want, is for you to be with me no matter what. Guide me in every choice I made and also please protect the people who are near to me. Make them happy, coz just seeing their faces smiling only makes me happy :) I know it's very shallow but that how I look upon happiness. I really don't need anything right now, no not money would make me happy or even a boy who'd call me up to say he loves me. Things that I have right now is enough even though sometimes they were the ones who makes me very lonely or sometimes angry. But I know that would pass out soon :) Thank you for everything, even the sad memories I have encountered :) Thank you for making me see a part of the world that I haven't seen. Thank you for letting me be welcomed in the hearts of the people who have alot of things to show but are just scared to show it because they see the world as dark from outside. Thank you for letting me help numerous people even though they're pissed of me because they just told me they don't need me :) at least I've tried. You know, the only dream I want to reach is to help everyone, and I mean everyone! I don't care if that person would be the meanest person or the scariest or the grossest, you taught me if we showed love we'd have love in return. I believe that, coz I've seen it myself! I've seen my dad handle some people like that :)

I really like this episode, I don't know why but it made me cry :)) I know it's kinda corny coz it's anime but let me prove to you that this show doesn't suck at all :)

http://www.crunchyroll.com/showmedia?id=44971