Have you ever felt like quitting?

Like life itself? I do.

I've been having SO MUCH PROBLEMS ABOUT MYSELF, MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS, MY SCHOOL.... THE WORLD...

I dont even know if I'm clinically depress or just plain hopeless. All I want to now is just QUIT. BE FREE FROM THIS WORLD. LIVE NOTHING. JUST LET ALL THINGS GO. Ofcourse I can't do that when I;m alive. I NEED TO DIE! LIKE RIGHT NOW.

I've been making mistakes for the past few years. I honestly feel that I'm not happy because life itself took alot of things from me like the source of my happiness. Can't I even take atleast one with me? Don't have I the right to feel happy?


GOOOOOOOOOOD. What's happening around me? Since when did my mom became "un"mom to me? Have I done something wrong to make her feel unhappy? Have I've been such a pest? Have I changed? Have I been hopeless?

Since when did my friends become apart from me? Have said something wrong? Have I changed? Did I do something to make them feel uneasy? Or was it just my fantasy that they are my "Friends"?

Since when did my house felt like hell to me? Everything, anything around here are starting to pull me down.


GOD, I BEG YOU. TAKE ME ANYWHERE JUST NOT MY MIND. I PRAY TO YOU THAT I WONT LOSE MY SANITY. GIVE ME STRENGTH IF I MUST....BUT DONT FORGET TO GIVE ME REST.